I Could Of Owned The Field

I COULD OF OWNED THE FIELD

WRITTEN BY J.R HILTON

2017

CLOSE BUT NEVER HERE

JUST WHEN I THINK IT'S NEAR IT'S GONE

WHY NOW WHEN I NEED IT MOST

THE HELP I NEED GONE GHOST

DON'T NEED EXCUSES

GET ME WHERE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE

SET ME FREE, FREE TO SHINE

DEFEND THE HONOR THAT IS MINE

EVERY BROKEN PROMISE

EVERY ABSENT WISH

I COULD OF OWNED THE FIELD

RUNNING WITH MY DREAMS

I COULD OF HEALED

DON'T THINK MY FATE IS SEALED

BUT I'VE BEEN WONDERING 

I'VE BEEN WANDERING

IN THIS VOID REALITY

THE HELP I NEED GONE GHOST

 JUST WHEN I NEED IT MOST

I COULD OF OWNED THE FIELD

JUST LIKED I PLANNED ALL ALONG

I LOOK UP AND SEE

A WALL IN FRONT OF ME

THROUGH IT, OVER IT, AROUND IT

IF I DON'T SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE

YOU'LL KNOW I FADED, BURNED OUT LIKE A STAR

OH THE LUCKS THAT BESET ME

KEEP ON TRYING TO DRAG ME DOWN

BUT I WON'T GO, SO MUCH I NEED TO KNOW

SO MUCH MORE INSIDE ME

ALL THAT'S MINE

LIFE CAN BE SO UNKIND

IT DOESN'T TAKE LONG TO FIND

FRIENDS THAT YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD COUNT ON

NEVER MEANT A WORD

THAT'S WHY I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM A ONE

SHADOWS START TO FALL

CLOSE TO TEARS AND THAT'S NOT ALL

I COULD OF OWNED THE FIELD

I'D OF EARNED MY WAY

RUNNING WITH MY DREAMS

I COULD OF HEALED

NOW I FEEL LIKE, LETTING GO ONE MINUTE

AND THE NEXT I'M READY TO GO

TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THAT WALL

I'M TRYING TO UNDERSTAND IT

TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL

SOMETIMES THINGS GET SAD

I'M STILL ALIVE, SO LIFE'S NOT BAD

NO SENSE IN HANGING ONTO A SINKING STONE

WHEN IT ALL COMES DOWN

I'M STANDING ALONE